I'm really not exciting.

I'm still at 215.x. My 3rd fill was once again ALMOST perfect. If the dr was local I'd pop in for a touch up, but that 7 hour drive round trip definitely talks me out of that. I guess I just need to eat smarter. LOL.

I'm actually pretty damn happy with everything, even though I haven't lost for a while. I eat whatever I want, until I'm full, and I'm down 40 pounds. Hard to complain! I'd have easily gained the 40 back by now any other way, and it has made a HUGE difference in my life. I feel better, look better, clothes fit better, I get around better, etc. Frankly, even if I never lose another pound, the surgery was worth the price! Of course, I am going to lose more. :) I'd actually gained back 5 or so before this last fill, which are all gone now, so I see I'm on the downward trend again.

I can't really eat much texture for breakfast or lunch. I can eat a big ass bowl of cereal, but like biscuits or bacon or something would definitely not happen. Dinner I can generally eat pretty freely, but I puked up my pasta the other night, which was NOT a good time. Don't want to do that again, ever. I didn't even bother trying to eat a hamburger last night. Memory of the pasta still too fresh.

My soccer team seems to not need me anymore, which makes me :(. I need to find a new something to do to count as exercise. I get bored at red lights, so just running on a treadmill or whatever is definitely OUT. Maybe just being out and about in the summer will help, who knows.

No real reason for this post other than the fact that I haven't posted in a long time. :)

I did it!

I did it!!! And it was AWESOME!

I showed up tonight figuring on telling them I'd try it for a few minutes to see how I do. It's a co-ed team and some of those guys are really big and GOOD.

However, it didn't work out that way. They play 4 girls and 4 guys on the field and at game start there were only 4 girls there, including me. So I had to START. EEEK! I played about 25 minutes before someone came and subbed me out.

Out of 80 minutes, I probably ended up playing about 70 of them. Running almost the entire time, up and down up and down. I do NOT run. I have not run in YEARS. Like... 20 of them!! I'm as stubborn and competitive as I am out of shape, though, so I think it all worked out. I didn't do anything remarkably good, but I didn't do anything atrociously bad, either. And I didn't die of a heart attack, have an asthma attack, break a bone, or die. So I consider it a success. LOL

I will DEFINITELY be doing it again! It was soo fun!!! I highly recommend it. There were girls out there (not on my team but on the other) way bigger than me, so that made me feel a little better, too. :)

I'm going to be SORE tomorrow though! LOL

Filled!

Ok whoa, that last fill tapered off in a HURRY! I even managed to gain back 5 pounds. Yikes. Hoping those fall right off. I'm sure that will happen. ;)

She says this fill will be good for about 3 months, so that's mildly encouraging.

They had a new nurse doing the fill. I could have done without her telling him "don't use those needles, always use the bigger one" right in front of me. In fact, I suggested out loud that perhaps they might consider a different language as I was RIGHT THERE HELLO? Anyway, he did get it first poke, so I won't complain about that. Then coming out he dripped a little and got a stern reminder to keep the plunger down so that it all goes in. Wth did I get ripped off? I want my extra drop!!!

Other than the 7 hour drive there and back yesterday, not much to report.

I was down 6lbs on their scale from the last visit 6 weeks earlier. They were happy with my 1lb a week average, I was just pissed about the 5 others I would have been down if I wasn't a cow.

2 months til vacation.
5 months til 20 year reunion.

Anyone know the cut off point for rollercoasters? I feel like I'm close and I really want to take the boys, but I'll be pissed/sad/really just a major bitch if I pay $180 or whatever for the 3 of us to get in and then I can't even ride!

Nothing is exciting. :P

Laura was yelling at me for not updating, but really the reason I'm not updating is because there's nothing to say.

I haven't really lost anything for the last couple weeks - my fill has started to taper off. Some days I can eat quite a bit, other days not as much. Last night I was only able to eat one slice of pizza (not the top crust). Last time we had pizza I had 3. Oops!

I get another fill next Wednesday and although I acknowledge that I need one, I'm super nervous about it. This one was just almost perfect, I hope the next one doesn't put me over the edge. I've basically been able to eat whatever I want, just less of it. I haven't gotten stuck to the point that I can't walk it off, but there have been some pretty intense reminders that I'm banded. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be saying goodbye to much of what I've been eating after this next fill. I haven't had to worry too much about getting enough protein or veggies or whatever yet since I've been able to eat quite a bit. Not sure what will happen after Wednesday.

I sent all my fat clothes off to Goodwill yesterday. Now all I have are my semi-fat clothes, and I don't have very many of them. My closet is looking very very empty. LOL. I have been accumulating more clothes in this size than I anticipated, only because I can shop in the regular sizes now (even though I'm the BIGGEST size in that department). Fun!

I still haven't done any running. I was big on planning that and very low on execution. LOL. I did, however, talk to a guy about playing over 30 soccer, so maybe that will pan out.

In unrelated news, Lauren and Noah tore my van side door right off the track this morning. How, I don't know. But I might kill them seriously. Do not have time to deal with body shop, do not want to deal with body shop, should not have to deal with body shop when my van is only 2 months old. Not happy.

Well...

59 seems easier than 100.

But still a long way to go.

AND, I feel super fat today. This is the smallest I've been since 2003, so I realize it's illogical, but there it is.

And a pic!

Ok so it's a headshot and kinda pointless, but...

Was dinking around with other photographers this weekend so I thought I'd get me a new avatar. Here's a bigger version of it. :)

Can I just get one more freakin pound please?

I feel like I've been reaching for that 40lb mark for 3 months. I know it hasn't been that long, but damn.

I ate a LOT of junk food this week, so I of course have no one to blame for not hitting the mark but myself. =P

In other news, yesterday dh and I went for a walk around the lake and block and I didn't even get winded. It's nice to be omgwillIeverhit 40lbs lighter.